A well-meaning friend who is walking stumbling through my current storm with me said to me, “I can’t wait to hear the victory part of your story.”
I desire victory too… but what is victory?
What if all the broken relationships I now suffer enjoy, remain broken for the remainder of my time in this world?
What if the only broken relationship restored in this world is my relationship with God through Christ?
Would that be enough? I have given IT to God but He, for His own reasons, is not accepting. Not now. So my thorn remains.
Some implore me to focus not on the past but on the future. I find this focus-shift does not work well at all. At least, not for me. My future is either a fantasy I will never see in this world or a continuance of broken relationships. The former is denial. The later is a mirror. Neither is joy.
What if where I am right now, present time, in this pit, covered with this world’s mud and another world’s love…
What if this is it?